I went through many periods of my life feeling fine or worse than adequate. When someone would ask how I am doing, the answer was always, "I'm fine. It's fine. Everything is fine." I think I said that to make myself feel better, especially when I was not fine at all.
Ironically a few days ago, I was talking with someone, and they said that same "I'm fine" sentence to me, and I started laughing. Then I quickly explained to them why I was laughing. It was as if they took the words right out of my mouth. I listened, I empathized, and did my best to send them love.
Why is it that we feel we should not be fine? It is almost as if we won't allow ourselves to process our emotions, and we should hide them or change them immediately. Is feeling fine really that dreadful? It could be, but it could also just be a moment in time where you are not at your best. Nor are you at your worst. You just ARE.
What if we all accepted who we are in the moment and stopped beating ourselves up for who we think we "should" be? Hmmm, interesting thought, right? Let's allow ourselves and others to move forward, backward, pivot, or just plain stop for a while. Let's allow ourselves to feel grumpy, angry, anxious, or deflated for some time. Let's let ourselves feel everything.
Be kind to others and be kind to yourself. We are all going through challenging times during 2020. Move gracefully. "Your attention is so sacred that if you truly look for beauty and grace, you will find it in everything." - Kamand Kojouri
